I don’t know why
it's really hard to find a job recently, is the law of attraction really
working? They tell me to ask what i want and imagine the thing’s that i want
and pretend that is really happen. I have a big imagination, i’m kinda person
with full of imagination, i can imagine averything... i’m a dreamer... that’s
what i want to say actually... hahaha...
I imagine to be
PNS everyday, work with that uniform. I think its suit me well. And i can
imagine to be the pretties PNS ever... hahaha... no no... i’m kidding... but
the real thing is they (Geverment) didn’t lauch the test result yet... so i
still have to wait untiiilll... i dunno... so i kinda life in a dream world. Sometime
i thinking its really nice if i didn’t life at all... life is hard u know...
I know that God
give us everything that we need, and indded that the trully happend. I have
everything that i need but only the important thing just like eat, breath
something that u’r parent’s can give but not the luxurious one. Nope, my
familly is not rich at all, at least i can eat and life... that’s it... for a
moment that’s enough for me...
I reallize that i
can’t counting on them for the rest of my life, so i have to do something... but
i dunno what to do... ottokhae... when i was a kid i have a lot of dream, i
want to be a stewardess, i want to be a designer, i want to be an astronot,
etc. And when i’m in a high school my dream is i want to be a Richman, no
matter what. Hahaha... that’s really dream.... but now, i just want to be a
house wife... but, hey...!! i don’t even have a boyfriend, how i can be a
wife... damn... that’s the reality...
I know as a
graduation from university in mayor of Fashion Design i have a lot of knowledge,
i can make a clothes, i can make the clothes pattern, i can draw fashion
ilustration, i can use corel draw, i can use microsoft office, i can speak
english written and oral. I can make thing’s with crochet or knitting, i can
make batik and jumputan (tie dye)... what in english word... aaaa... some kind
of tecnique to make a pattern fabric... i already pass the Profesional Teacher Program
and have the sertification soon... i can cook korean food... i can play many
kind’s of game... hahaha... so many craftmanship but i still have no job yet...
ottokhae... i dont have money to grow a business...
Well... i wish i could
move to another place. Place that no one know me so i could start over my life
as i wanted... but i dunno where to go, i dunno what i’m going to do first...
sometime i was jealous with spongebob, he just making crabby patty and get some
money... he didn’t even know what money for... he have a house... have a BBF
name’s Patrick... they can go wherever they want, do whatever they want... they
didn’t even worry about the money, about the love lives... not worry about
anything... even if they get old... how beautiful they life’s... HEY!!! They not
real... how can U jealous with that... *SLAP*. I know something wrong with my
self, can somebody fix me??? I just can laughing to my self,,, to my life...
hahaha... YEEEAAAHHH... ^^... whatever...
I just want to be a Housewife actually...